Sad today because a similar feeling came back, I was still traumatized by that morning in bright daylight walking in silence pretending nothing happened and I don’t know you. I walked home crying because I don’t wanna trust anymore. I went back to the bedroom and saw my fishes pause swimming in the middle of the water, falling asleep. Made me think of the night view at the pacific aquarium, all the fish would just pause, without filter current they look like just floating in air. As soon as I got home, it flashed rain, thinking about the fish at night made me a bit happier. I don’t want that anymore.